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it has taken me over 100 years to finally realize why i'm dying

2004-12-01T04:52:19Z

seems to me that i forgot that this thing even existed...for better or worse im back on this thing mainly because im procrastinating and don't want to start my next project.
its been months im in a new city(ies) i practically live on the go train. one day im going to tape record all the conversations becuase people really do talk about odd things. i feel like a sick dog right now, my nose is constantly cold....thats odd isnt it? i find it strange, oh wait does that mean the dog is healthy when the nose is wet and cold? i cant remember. either way im not a dog so i think its fair to show some concern for this matter.
my latest project is no officially complet, i am the proud maker of a very large peanut that is constructed out of exactly 1200 peanuts...thats alot of peanuts my friends, i hope to never eat one again, even the thought of peanut butter makes me ill, so pretty much it takes 1200 peanuts to finally get over a peanut obsession. lets hope no one has a seriouse allergy to peanuts on the train thursday. other wise they are goign to castrate me, actually they wont casue i'll be holding the nut...and thats like cryptonite to them haha...that was actually very mean of me. im sorry if i offende anyone with a nut allergy. i understand your pain although i do not share it. alright all the blood in my hands is gone now. its time to do some work. good nite my pretties.

this boredom will never end

2004-08-16T00:27:03Z

so what school has ended like 3 months ago. ive done nothing , i have yet to have a weekend off.... till this weekend. oh man am i going to make up for this summer. trista im coming home love, maybe you should lock me in the basement. ok. if you live in london, and i know you, and i like you be there for for raygun next sunday. yes ok thats it. im so terribly bored that i had to make that announcement. pieces my kiddies

shot throught the heart

2004-07-05T01:13:02Z

all i know is that i closed my eyes and pulled the trigger

2004-07-05T01:05:37Z

my cat vacated the premisses over 48 hours ago, he left during the nite with no goodbyes. last nite i thought i heard him in the distance meowing, but sadly i was mistaken, only the misquitos were out an about. so ive come to realize that me predicting that i will become a crazy cat lady have come to a hault, cause this is the 2nd cat to have ran away from me in the past 3 years...( they were brothers too).
it rained all day today out here in scarlem, my cat is going to catch a cold. i cant decide whether or not if i am sad or bitter. fuck it all

he's got more then talking on his mind

2004-07-01T23:54:34Z

so far this summer is an absolute bust. this city sucks, mullets and spandex seem to be a requirment here as the stench of stale beer and hot dogs rise up from the streets. everything and everyone seems to be teh same as it was over 3 years ago when i left this shit town, and instead of running even further im enough of an ass to return trying to only avoid everything that i once knew. im returning to my darlins soon, to a place where the beer is cold, where corey heart is wearing sunglasses at nite and where mullets are scarce ( well in comparison to oshawa) words of advice : indian/chinese food always sounds good, until you digest it. pieces my hearts. im going to see you soon.

its times like these when silence means everything

2004-06-08T02:48:13Z

no one needs to know about this.

update on ashlee... hmmm absolutly nothing. this town has nothing,nadda,buttkiss....but what can a girl do..oh wait complain.

people should stop reproducing. im going to start the trend.
this is it for the updates, what a waste of an entry.

lets locomo..........

bitten by beautiful teeth

2004-05-28T19:35:19Z

blah blah blah thats all i hear and all i read. so pretentious. i need to learn to spell, i could blame it on my lakc of typing skills, but we all know that is only the partial truth..i seriously cant spell worth shit....but as long as you get what im saying then the job is done ...excuses.
feeling ill, which is hard to explain due to the fact that i only ate a salad...actually it was only lettuce and onions, but i think that constitues as a salad due to the fact dressing is involved...my culinary skills are masterful...almost surpasses the spelling skills that i behold. sweet merciful crap. ive really got nothign to say for today... cause i did nothing, and thats all i have done all week so its jsut sweet and dandy.
arent you glad i didnt say banana??
pieces my pretties

onemoretomorrow @ 2004-05-25T16:21:00

2004-05-25T20:20:12Z

ok kiddos...the update...ashlee has yet again lost another food group. yes yes what else could this kid lose you say...well the meat food group has now diminished....it was limitedly used before and now its goign into retirment. good bye - everybody wave -

so whats left to eat?? well i have the fruits and veggie food group that is still going strong until i get chromes or colitis wooh that will be soo fun. and i have ummm thats about it haha ..no not really i got me rice and potattttooos. uuuummmm sweet? soya you are my current love afafir.

cant you see the pain in her eyes? - i thought that was masscara

2004-05-25T16:59:42Z

what is with the calling everybody dirrty?? im so confused, i feel as though i have stepped into an alternate universe. i love learning the moral lessons off of saved by the bell.....and then making fun. wooh my life is full of amusment.

todays adventures im going to the doctor to be told never to eat anything but lettuce ever again. AND i get to decorate my very own apron. its goign to be totally bodaicious. i just need a killer quote for the front.... anybody have any suggestions? i am open to all. ' french the cook ' is at the top of the list.
first you get the apron then you learn the cooking....i think i will only get as far as the apron.
ahh my days are so full you are all jealous. JEALOUS I SAY. you could only wish you were full of boredom each and everyday.

the truth is your not so dangerous, you're not at all what you say

2004-05-19T04:10:15Z

i wroked my first shift today, wasnt bad...weird getting back into the working groove. my feet are sore and im a wimp...last year i could easily do a 9 hour shift in big ass kicker boots. dear feet...princess is goign into retirement...its time to get callousd again.
i finally found out the reasoning behind my 3 interviews at the fucking store...apparetnly it doesnt matter just how qualified you are for a job but it matters on the appearance....dear store, im sorry that i dotn fit into yr size zero, im sorry i have punctured holes in my face for adornments, im sorry i dye my hari black not blond, im sorry that i will not wear beige, i preferr black, im sorry i went to school for 2 years and could do your managers job with my eyes closed, im sorry that you have to be admazed by my skills every 5 minutes becasue my IQ by far passes some others ( if m expalining things to you...that is not a good sign)...but anyways dear employer i thank you greatly for taking a chance on someone that appaerntly sparks some disgust to yr stores image..dont worry if something better comes along i will leave you with a dear john letter. xxx

people reading this.......... this is my bitch time. im sorry no im not cause im ranting if you dont want to read this then well STOP.

advice of the week ' dont give it all up front, make him work for it '

pieces kiddlings

i am ashlee's lack of sense of good judgement

2004-05-12T03:10:08Z

im running away to pittsburg, changing my name to betty and working in a coffee shop. good bye everyone...you may or may not be missed.

are my cries just falling on deaf ears

2004-05-10T19:05:21Z

bad haircuts make me miserable as i try each day to sacrifice what i used to have and try to salvage what i have left... the consequence is bad hair.
i have now declared this week as confessing yr undying love for me week. im ready for it...on the most part.whats a girl to do? beats me so im hiding under a rock until this week ( or summer) passes.
see you in september when its safe.

onemoretomorrow @ 2004-05-04T12:33:00

2004-05-04T16:34:48Z

** sneeze **

oh man ive been up for 2 and a half hours and three minutes...and im already outta things to do. BUT i have learnt to make my first meal. i made pad thai, not as good as you would get in authentic thai resturants, but still it was edile and i dindt burn it or undercook it! wooh the first time even and no one will eat it...cause it looks funny ...lame.
i also gave my dog a bath, and remembered that i was allergic to dogs, especially wet dog hair on my skin. my arm and the side of my neck have developed a rash and i cant stop sneezing...hot stuff, wooh.
im begining to hate saved by the bell.

i want to get into your sheets

2004-05-03T22:55:10Z

loud angry blurrrr...... no you're outta line, keep your tales to yrself cause i dont want to hear them anymore.
im teething. ouch. and im very broed so im bitching on lj like everyone else, casue thats what its here for i guess..bitch bitch bitch.
where my boys at? the ladies in the house have lost all humor...so im sticking with the boyz. hmm that could be thought of a very queer line...but its not meant to be read as such. the stench of hot dogs grew even more fragrent today in this town, i fear the stench will soon follow me around and wherever i go...people will know im from the shwa.... damn it, took me 3 years to get rid of the smell.
ahh well. tonite is going to be filled with seeing just how much coffee i can drink. im thinking 4 big ass cups,but thats only casue im on my third one for the day and if i drink any more then the additional 4 my bladder just might explode. kaBoom!

'you're pretty, and your baby is too'.... umm thanks im not a milf

2004-04-30T00:59:47Z

oh hell, worst fucking day in the world. horrible horrible horrible, i dont even want to recapture just what happend, maybe if it was seen on a sitcome show in the comforts of my own home, then i could laugh at it, but no it happened to me and im forever tramatized.
im going to get my tubes tied, or only sleep with boys with vestectomys ( i dont even think i can spell that ). when will people fully realize that i can not be domesticatedly ( not even a word) trained, i dont belong with house, dog and babies, i belong in a single room apartment with my cats and packs of smokes and beer.
one more day, im so afraid of what tomorrow might bring, it cant be any worse then today.
why isnt anyone on line. i need symmpathy and a promise of tequilla.
oh man...... save me, anyone, please....

i hate this ugly feeling and its getting way to strong

2004-04-26T21:34:14Z

back in the shwa....it smells like hot dogs. things are kinda boring but what can i expect...its all about making the bling bling ...ohh wait im still poor. this plan is not working out.
i forgot all about how great cable is. hOt dAmN

onemoretomorrow @ 2004-04-24T10:25:00

2004-04-24T14:41:31Z

in the last hours of my stay in ottawa. woo! yet im still going to miss all you carleton kids. marc there will never be another snuffy or a minkus...that name is forever reserved for you. iain, well i just think your rad ha ha ha and crazy one day you will learn the proper etiquette of the msn. travis yr my screamo concert buddy, represent the tdot ( you better call me ). umm many of the people i will miss wont be on lj so whats the point. umm sandra its been real, lets bring tea partys to the 905 district! laurel im gonna miss you pretty lady, i wish we talked earlier in the year, but at least we started to talk! anita your nothing short of rock awesome keep up the hulk hogan pride!!!!!!emily you made film sem. fun, thanks for representing the anka!!!!!!!!!( i love that man ) all of you better keep in touch a la internet or whatevs. i hear there is this great invention called a telephone. yeah so im out.

parting is such sweet sorrow

2004-04-22T18:46:14Z

oh man its almost over. 5 more hours till the last exam, 5 more hours to try on learn a whole semester...but i am fantabulous so yeah its gonna giver!
room is getting empty on my side that is. im ready to leave this city, but im not ready to leave my friends. this is a theme i think, make some really great friends and then leave only to do the same again. oh well. good bye to roomates...its becoming something i never want to experience again im going back to solitude and the utmost privacy ..now if i only had a room to move back into. oh well its time to reconcile with ex's and meet up with friends i have out grown along time ago...fuck that im going to run away to london where the grass is green and the girls are pretty!

the poet will die, the visionary

2004-04-19T18:10:14Z

its the hours after, we have to live these hours after hours....thats what takes it toll, cause we are all just sitting on a ledge of a window waiting for the final hour.

are we all a virgina woolf, or are we mrs dalloway.
are we all just waiting to be devoured by the sea, or do we live a lie and say we are going to get the flowers ourself today. in the end she could disappear, her destiny needs to be resolved.

give me rimbaud for misconceptions of illusion, but give me the big bad woolf for my reality.

i wanna make you my bad habit

2004-04-19T04:59:11Z

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Age
Virgin?
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How?	Magic! Kaboom!
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Age
Most Likely to Say	"It's not that it was bad..."

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cheap thrills

2004-04-19T04:57:33Z

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If Shakespeare had written you... by Velfire
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Gender	Female
Age	37
Character type	Fool
Home	Inverness
Favorite wordplay	Make (do. how boring.)
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cmon pretty baby kiss me deadly

2004-04-19T04:51:08Z

weekend you suck. the last one i will ever have to endure here...hopefully. the tea was exquisit,but the beer was better ( as it should at 16.25 a pitcher ) next week im back to oshawa trash, im going to pick out my spandex and track pants now i got the big hair mastered to perfection.

i am forever tramatized by you kareokee kevin from nova scotia. of course i couldnt handle you, i dont handle crazy middleaged men who thinks that talking to himself constitutes as socializing. laurel you are going to have to keep the memory alive of kareokee kevin, as i will be around far more crazier people back home.

if my visa wasnt almost maxxed i would totally buy a plane ticket somewhere obsure. im mainly thinking japan to join the western girl sex trade organization, and im changing my name to mardi...and eat tons of spicy rice balls,and be the offical merch girl for the 5,6,7,8's. i say that is nothing but high ambition on my part. wooh. fuck it.

i will never return to burn out in this piss factory

2004-04-16T14:28:08Z

first morning back and its been 8 months here and yet i dont feel any different from that first week. i guess i cant complain cause i dont want to be at a place i should call home yet feels like anything but, and i most definatly dont want to be in this jail cell of a room in this stigma of a town. the one person that could offer me sanity isnt around, and nor could i accept the offer. .... so i bitch on a computer, cause im sick of bitching vocally.

sick sick gut rot from sweet/sour strawberries mixed wth bannanas...i hate you bannanas there is nothing good about you.

memories of last year this time replay, and i miss it so much..going to bed at 4 am, waking up for a 9 am shift next day, living off of coffee and bowls of corn ( one can live off of a grocery bill of $5 a week very very easily ) and going downtown. doenst sound like much but i rather be smoking and waiting at the bus stop at 9 am with a hangover then to sit in this room for any longer. but whatever... i dug myself here.

so im sick of bitching and making myself sad right now, its time to study so i can prove to myself that this was not a wasted year of time and money.

i get so fucked baby when you stick your fingers in my little brain

2004-04-13T14:06:20Z

oshawa, oh courtice too, i bloody well hate you.

im still in the durham region, i dont know why, im outta smokes, im outta cash, and my little brother called me a whore. oh the love

job hunting in the shwa as fun as it usually is, why is it that the stores of high maintance and the bitchy image like me and are impressed withmy resumes, and the stupid low budget over packed stores that are suppose to be freindly look at me like i am the same dirt and shit that they find on their shoes ( im sorry little girl thats your shwa family not me. im sorry that you are stuck working a third key job in an oshwaw mall pulling in a whole $10 an hour to support you baby and crack addict toothless husband.. honey get over yourself you live in oshawa and work in oshawa and will probably die in oshawa. ( for the record i LEFT that shit town 3 years ago, im back for a summer- a year at the most, AND MY MOTHER LIVES IN COURTICE.... the whtie trash is not allowed past townline... someone should tell that to my neighbour)

BUT on the plus side...my mother did buy me a pretty skrit. wooh!

i stole this survey casue im bored as hell

2004-04-06T05:30:06Z

15 Years ago, I:
1. was watching jem and the holligrams
2. was in kindergarden
3. had my first and probably only marriage proposal
4. had really long hair
5. watched dirty dancing religiously

10 Years Ago, I:
1. reading alot of archie comics and babysitters club
2. watched dirty dancing religiously
3. watched 90210 ( i cried when dylan cheated on Brenda), Melrose Place and Models Inc with my mom
4. pretended i was Brenda, and my firend mimi was kelly
5. made fun of the boys, and ran away when they tried to kiss me
5 Years Ago, I:
1. was the strange art girl that sat in the back and refused to talk
2. had the hugest crush on a stupid boy
3. dyed my hair black
4. got my first guitar
5. popped alot of pills
3 Years Ago, I:
1. started college
2. went to nyc and drank cosmos with my soon to be boss in a gay club
3. got 2 kittens and lost one
4. got my first apartment
5. finally got out of oshawa! wooh if you lived there youd understand

1 Year Ago, I:
1. was graduating college
2. discovered a love for labatt 50
3. practically lived at cto with the trista j
4. worked at mexx
5. got my septum peirced
Yesterday, I:
1. started to pack
2. watched some movies
3. talked to many people on msn
4. listend to some radalicious music
5. had a pizza party!

Today I:
1. slept in , and then had a nap
2. talked to my mom and assured her i wasnt drunk
3. had a very large lunch
4. went to class ( grrrr )
5. packed another box

Tomorrow, I:
1. will pack another box
2. go to french class
3. put together french notes and review for my exam
4. attempt to start my final paper... i say attempt meaning write the title and pick the topic.
5. look at my comp screen for an obscene amount of time cause im cool like that

What 80's band/singer are you?
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Year you were born
Favorite 80
Favorite color
Favorite instrument
Your 80's band/singer

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